More About Fergs

Hi, I’m Fergs.

I’m a newly married woman in my mid-forties, a boy mum (to four rather handsome grown men!) and if I'm honest a bit of a whirlwind of a person, who can never decide what I really want out of life! 

After a late ADHD diagnosis, I started to accept that I was never really going to fully understand myself, or my place in the world. I have a mind that craves the dopamine hit that change gives me whilst also suffering from imposter syndrome and rejection sensitivity to the point of wanting to live under a rock - and as far away from real people as possible! 

However, the knowledge of my diagnosis, my treatment, and hitting perimenopause has allowed me to enter a new phase of my life. 

I do feel that I am able to express who I really am and what truly matters to me with much more clarity and the "I don't really give a fuck" attitude that many women my age seem to acquire - If they are brave enough. 

 

The Witch That Came Out (of the Wardrobe) 

 

I’ve always felt my inner witch within me. I went through a teenage phase of black clothes, mood rings, and trying to summon the dead - Quite possibly brought on by going to see "The Craft" at the cinema with my school mates... we absolutely were the weirdos mister. 

Being an October baby, I love autumn, for the cosy nights, warm jumpers, earthy hues and candle lit evenings. I have always loved Halloween and the smell of burning wood from open fires. I've always owned tarot and oracle cards, dabbled in mediumship, and been deeply drawn to things like pointed witches hats and boots, broomsticks, cauldrons, stars and moons, potions and elixirs, spooky scenes and music.  The ravens or the crows are my favourite to cross my path, I love the colour black and my heart skips a beat when I stumble upon a witchy shop! 

There have been so many times where my inner witch has tried to come out, and many times I have pushed her back deep inside myself, often too worried about what others might think or that I was getting it all wrong. 

However, now I’m allowing that part of myself to come forward. I’m what you’d call a “baby witch,” reconnecting with intuition, gentle rituals, and nature’s rhythms as I learn to live in alignment with the seasons and my spirit.  This journey is a tough one and I need to do a lot of soul searching to allow myself to let go of some of my unhelpful thinking around what it is to be a witch.  

 

What I Do For A Living

 

I’ve always been passionate about helping others feel better in this messy yet beautiful world. After qualifying as a nurse in 2012, I spent time as a community nurse, which taught me a lot about both life and death. I then shifted my career, and I've since spent over a decade working for a mental health charity, supporting countless local people in various recovery and wellbeing roles.

Now I’m starting to focus on what might be next for me. I am slightly disillusioned and grounded within my current role, and I feel my skills, experience, knowledge and academic ability are being left out to decay. I need something new, and I think it's time I started to think about running the show myself for a while.  I believe in the power of small steps, cups of tea, honest conversations, making positive connections and embracing gentle self-discovery. I believe society is damaging itself though over pathologizing mental health, failing to see the value of hobbies, interests and most importantly human connection, and we have a hell of a lot of people who have no idea how to recognise, understand, accept and embrace their emotions, and challenge their thoughts and behaviours. 

I am in the early stages of exploring my next steps towards working, earning and still making a difference on more of my own terms.